Confusion Hit Me Hard

Hiya folks! Been so long since my last post... I've been very busy with my uni (FYI, I take Art & Design major and let me tell you, it's fun yet hard at the same time). Doing uni projects and side projects. Life has been wonderful for me :)

I have decided to revive this blog, to share with you my ups and down and everything that is related with my major. I hope that I can help someone out there with this blog. I really hope you will enjoy :)


The thing that hit me hard right now is actually my future job. Since I was little, I have always fancied illustrators. Because I grew up watching animes and reading mangas, the root is pretty deep and I cannot cut it down THAT easily. Even though I study graphic design, I don't really feel the 'umph'... Don't get me wrong, I take this major with zero knowledge about design. FYI, design and drawing is two different things. Design is when you make something for mass production, thus making it comfortable, up to date with the latest trend, visually attractive, yet has a very deep deep deeeeeeepppp concept behind it. Drawing is... drawing. It's not made for mass production, but for the artists' personal use (maybe his hobby, etc). Despite it (design) being THAT hard, I do enjoy doing every steps because I like to develop my own idea into a concept. What kind of story should I tell to the people? In what way? It's like a storytelling.

The real problem is actually the fact that I want to be an illustrator. But as mentioned above, my roots in the modern Japanese culture is pretty deep, and rumour has it that not ALL company will hire you if you have manga/anime based illustrations in your portfolio, especially working abroad. I think I haven't mentioned this to you before, but the two people who inspire me most are Tim Burton and Olivia Rose. I combined their technique with mine. I also like add an abstract element to it, making it somewhat like a surrealism art.

Right now I'm just so confused, up to the fact that I've been thinking to change my style. But I don't know if that is a good thing because this is who I am, take it or leave it.

...Or is it good to think like that? >.<


Anyway, Happy belated New Year!